Life’s Meaning

“This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one…The being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.”

~ George Bernard Shaw

Friday, the 13th.  Is this a day of questionable luck, or a culmination of a year and a half of a life gone in such an unexpected direction?  The whining and grievances have been kept at bay, and the desire to just hide and burst into tears of frustration and loneliness carefully curtailed for a year and seven months.  My purpose is clear and I continue to strive to be a force of nature; in my work, my dreams, my responsibilities.  But, what happens when the force is just not enough to break through the wall?  What happens when starting over doesn’t hold the magic and promise of the beginning of a great new adventure?  What happens when starting over is just an overwhelming amount of work, stress and sadness?  If the world is not to devote itself to making us happy, is it intent on making us struggle?


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6 responses to “Life’s Meaning

  1. The world devotes itself to no one and the happiness you seek must come from within as I’m sure you know.Sure do get frustrated and tired myself too when the universe conspires seemingly against me…I can but say you have company along the way…


  2. Gary

    From my view the world is indifferent to what we think or feel. It is up to us to seek and discover whatever is out there in support of happiness and hopefully learn from our mistakes in moving forward. Thankful for our ability to be able ponder and pursue better days ahead, we can move forward. Remembering the words on the refrigerator regarding essentials to happiness,”having something to do, having someone to love, and having something to hope for”, still ring true. We have all three, and I want to share all with you still. I’m deeply sorry for opening a door that allowed so much pain to flow into our lives. I need to believe that some good will come out of the darkness and will allow us to emerge stronger and more appreciative of the most simple pleasures and blessings that we do possess.


  3. Kim

    I’m a believer in the concept that all things good or bad in our lives happen so that we can learn from them. All we can do is do the best we can with what we have, and try to make others (and ourselves) happy in the process.


  4. Amy, if anyone deserves for life and the world to flow with your wishes, it is you. I d not believe the world is indifferent; I believe we make it and are part of it, just as it makes us and is part of us. We are as eternal now as we will ever be and the vastness of the cosmos is a part of our daily lives. Sadly the social and economic illusions we have created are vastly imperfect, but I believe you will prevail through your immense love and giving. Regarding Friday the 13th, 13 is a lucky number is many cultures, including Chinese. The best I can offer today is from the Buddha’s teachings, the beautiful Dhammapada: “O let us live in joy, although having nothing! In joy let us live like spirits of light!” Having lost my first son, and survived, I know that we really do have “nothing” in material terms. I am as attached as anyone to our home, our possessions, but I know that what is real and timeless is the immeasurable love I had in the past and the equally immeasurable love I have now for Charong, Hudson and Paradise. We are spirits of light.


  5. Nancy

    Such a cry out for answers, for help, for clarity in a time of shadows. I am in awe of your strength. I agree with Kim and have said the same thing myself…you can only do the best you can with what you have at that time. Sometimes one looks back and thinks they could have done more or better, but in truth it was not possible if you were doing all you could with what you had right then. As far as the 13th…it’s a happy number for me…Mom, Casey and Talia were all born on the 13th!!!!
    PS Alexander always has such good comments!


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