Where have I been? It has been almost 3 weeks since I have taken this time for myself to write! My days have become filled with reading the writing of others, so my praying, for today’s word that hopefully will not fail me, is once again to find the balance in my life. My balance scale constantly fluctuates between reading and writing, learning and reflecting and of course, walking and reading somehow squeezes in there too.
I live through my cravings and use that as a determiner for how to spend my time. There are days when I just crave rushing home to grab my latest book and sit on my favorite couch to languish in words. Then other days I must move, walk or practice yoga. Today is a day when I am finding the balance having rushed home to read, settled in a comfy chair in my lovely spring yard, an hour later heading off to the gym for a treadmill walk followed by a great yoga class, returning home for a quick check of the email and here I am! Writing! If only that was the beginning of my day instead of the end of it, darn that work!
Praying is a practice that can take many forms. I am far removed from the traditional religious connotation of praying and am finding a lot of satisfaction in meditation, when looking for answers. I do, however, find myself talking to my mother (who passed away a year and a half ago) a lot lately and hoping she will visit my dreams to give me some much-needed advice. I do pray for that connection-to that other place that my mother now inhabits. I do pray for messages of wisdom to reach me, and for the ability to recognize the answers to my questions, when they are given to me. We pray as a way of connecting to our inner wisdom because when we are able to reach that place, we realize that the answer has been there all along.
This is today’s challenge: to find a way to reach your own “gut feeling” by balancing the chatter and the quiet, the looking out and the looking in. The reward is a sense of knowing, a sense of peace and hopefully a few answers.